I've always found it easier to feel a special closeness to friends of the same sex, and even unconsciously think about the possibility that they might be having a similar experience when I masturbate.
Growing up, I noticed that I tended to have deeper emotional bonds with classmates and friends of the same sex. Most of those people who made me think about them repeatedly were of the same sex. On a psychological level, I cared extraordinarily about their feelings, especially what they thought of me. I always try to adjust my behavior and thoughts to their logic and values just to leave a good impression in their minds. Although this sometimes brings about minor annoyances, I feel that these can be dealt with or let go of on their own.
At the same time, if the situation permits, I offer to share my perceptions and values with them.
On the psychosexual side, I have the occasional urge to hug them, and also when I masturbate, I often imagine that they might be doing the same thing, but the imagery isn't about me being with them, it's simply the thought of them masturbating as well.
Each person's sexual orientation and emotional experiences are unique, and these feelings may stem from personal experiences, cultural backgrounds, or their own characteristics.
It is important to remember that sexual orientation is a very private topic and everyone has the right to protect their privacy and space. We should respect other people's feelings and choices and avoid making unwarranted guesses or judgments about their private lives.
If you are confused in any way about your sexual health or psychology, it is advisable to seek help from a professional doctor or counselor.