In the last month or two, I've started to imagine myself with another personality. She's a gentle and graceful girl, and I imitate her mannerisms from time to time, actually wanting her to be by my side and protect me all the time. At times, I also experience self-injurious behavior.
Hi friend, I'm Ching Chor and I'm happy to connect with you through words.
A warm hug to you first! The day of the midterm is getting closer and closer, are you feeling stressed right now? When you feel depressed or uncomfortable, you may want to talk to your parents or teachers for more communication, which is helpful in relieving the pressure of the midterm.
You say that you fantasize about another gentle and graceful personality, which may actually reflect your inner desire to be that wonderful girl. This kind of thinking is normal, but we need to distinguish between reality and imagination. You can truly become graceful and confident through hard study and self-improvement, rather than relying on imaginary company.
Do you want her to be with you all the time because you feel lonely or lack support sometimes? Try shifting your focus to your studies, talk to your friends more when you're stressed, call your mom or dad when you're lonely, and try to adjust your emotions to be happier. Mental health is important, don't ignore the signs.
You can tell your parents about your fantasies so that they can help share them. If things don't get better, make sure you seek professional counseling to deal with depression early.
Good luck!