Whenever my mom and dad talk to me about myself, I get especially irritated and always feel pressured to trust them.
I remember when I was a kid, my parents were always in a very difficult relationship, and they fought every three days. One time a stranger came to the house (I later realized that he was the third party's brother), and even though I was young, I knew what was going on in my heart. It wasn't until I was in middle school that my mom told me in person that my dad cheated on me in elementary school, and by the time I was in high school, my mom still said they were still on QQ and WeChat.
Now that I'm in college, my mom has instructed me before to keep this family scandal to myself, but then she expects me to blame my dad.
In our family, everything is my father's one hand, although I have never said anything to his face, but since junior high school, I have been holding a bellyful of fire on him, and I have never had a heart to heart with him. To be honest, I was so overwhelmed that I could hardly breathe.
I don't want to do anything lately, I don't even bother going to class, I don't really know what to do.
Hey friend, I can feel your kinks when I see you share.
From your description, the family situation is really complicated, and the father's dominance may have something to do with financial ability. If we want to be independent, we have to be strong first, accept the reality, bite the bullet and study, and try to find a good job or start a business to make money.
Hate father can not solve the problem, not as good as correct mindset, rely on their own efforts to take the initiative. The most important thing right now is to stick to your studies and build a foundation for the future.