I've been thinking about this for a long time and really don't think it's going to last. I want to choose to leave because physically and mentally I'm exhausted, I don't feel the zest for life, and everything seems dull and lifeless. The pressure of the past and the future is layered on top of each other, leaving me breathless, and I'm even starting to prepare to say goodbye. Perhaps the other world could not be any more difficult, and it would not cause me more pain than the present.
Honey, a warm hug to you first! Although I'm not sure exactly what you're going through, I can relate to your sense of grievance, confusion and powerlessness. The fact that you still took the initiative to seek help at such a low emotional moment is in itself a testament to your courage and inner light - deep down you desire to live well! It's just that the current persistent negativity has prevented you from finding a better solution for the time being, and you feel miserable and helpless. Don't worry, I'll be there with you to face it, cheers!
Beloved, no one is going to force you to keep moving forward, so if you feel tired, give yourself permission to stop, listen to your body's needs, and take a well-deserved break. You just need to work hard and persevere for yourself without having to carry too much weight.
When you learn to love yourself well and respond to the needs of your body and mind in a timely manner, you can experience the beauty of life again. Life is like a bow, need to have tension and relaxation, not always tense - only open and close freely, in order to maximize the potential. Life energy is a cyclical process. You can't just give without replenishing, otherwise your body and mind will be out of balance, and even if you want to continue to work hard, your inner energy will be exhausted.
Try to express your feelings of powerlessness; you are not superhuman and you are not obligated to take on everything for everyone. Learning to ask for help when you need it requires you to first recognize and accept your limitations. Asking for help doesn't bother them and doesn't mean you're vulnerable; on the contrary, it shows your authenticity and bravery, and it makes the other person feel wanted and valued.
Similarly, if you always over-give and don't expect anything in return, it may make you good in relationships in the short term, but over time, the other person may alienate you out of guilt. Also, your giving may not be what they really need, but instead it can make the relationship unhealthy.
So when you understand this, you will know that you need to take care of yourself before considering others in a relationship, while being brave enough to be your authentic self so that you can create harmonious, mutually nourishing connections.
I'm Lilly, the little ear of the Answer House, and the world and I love you! Remember, you are not alone and I will always be there for you, cheers!