I've found that I have some minor personality issues, mainly caused by low self-esteem.
There is something special about these manifestations in me.
The first point is that I'm super concerned about what other people think, to the point where I mind it a lot.
It always feels like people are staring at me.
Then I unconsciously looked over, coupled with the fact that I am quite introverted and usually not too talkative, as a result, it is easy for girls to misunderstand that I am interested in her.
And a bad habit from childhood, I like to pretend to look serious and stare at a certain place.
This leads me to sometimes observe people out of curiosity, which in turn leads to the misunderstanding above.
Though I know it's not very polite.
I tried to control myself, but because of my low self-esteem, I could only look down at the floor when I walked.
You see, I'm so sensitive and inferior and I don't want to be rude, so I have to do this.
Because when I look away, if someone looks over or moves in a particular way, I'm immediately distracted and look away, and no amount of mentalizing is going to help.
It also makes it hard for me to concentrate in class.
I think it really seriously affected my listening efficiency.
I understand that you're having a hard time with all of this, but don't be too anxious, a lot of people have similar experiences growing up.
First of all, it's very common to be concerned about what others think because of low self-esteem. We all want to give others a good impression, but you may be more sensitive. If you are afraid of others looking at you, you will unconsciously look back, which will result in misunderstanding. This is not intentional, it is just a habitual reaction that makes it difficult for you.
And that habit of staring at one place, it's great that you realize it's rude and want to change it, it shows that you have the will to improve. It's hard to change now because of your low self-esteem, but you can adjust it slowly.
As far as distractions in class affecting efficiency, it's a real headache. You can try small exercises to improve it, such as setting a goal to focus on reading for a few minutes and then extend the time to train concentration.
In addition, it is very important to slowly adjust your low self-esteem from the root. Discover more of your own strengths, think about the little things you do well every day, such as waking up on time, solving a problem, etc., to strengthen your self-confidence, so that you will be less concerned about the eyes of others, and it will be easier to overcome the bad habits.
If you have difficulty adjusting yourself, you can also find a counselor to talk about Oh, don't worry, change needs process, you will be able to slowly get better ah.